corrupt nyc

Looking into the rabbit hole

2011-03-03T15:46:00.000-08:00

Soul Cards

2011-03-01T09:44:00.000-08:00

What is your life about, anyway?

2011-03-01T09:30:00.000-08:00

What is your life about, anyway?
- Nothing but a struggle to be someone
Nothing but a running from your own silence

Rumi

2011-02-08T10:05:00.000-08:00

There's nothing left of me.
I'm like a ruby held up to the sunrise.
Is it still a stone, or a world made of redness?
The ruby and the sunrise are one.

Let the water settle and you will se the sun and the stars mirrored in your being.

If you are irritated by every rub, how will your mirror be polished?

Goodbye Party Night - Hello Beach Yoga Morning

2011-01-22T10:58:00.000-08:00

Mornings are my favorite now, so how could I get fucked up in the nights?

I do yoga on the beach with Rachel. I wish she wasn't moving Monday, it's gonna get lonely without her.

Jung On Fate

2011-01-10T16:21:00.001-08:00

The pshychologcal rule says that when an inner situation is not made conscious, it happens outside, as fate. That is to say, when the individual remains undivided and does not become conscious of his inner contradictions, the world must perforce act out the conflict and be torn into opposite halves.

Love At A Distance

2011-01-08T12:07:00.000-08:00

The distance between me and other people is the subject of my life right now. I am increasing it. I am living alone, spending time alone, cherishing to be alone.

At the same time I'm more filled with love than ever. I'm meditating and sending blessings to everyone I care about - it's such a long list! I'm so fortunate to have so many amazing people to love!

Let us love this distance, which is thoroughly woven with friendship, since those who do not love each other are not separated.

- Simone Weil

How To Make Me Shut Up

2011-01-04T15:00:00.000-08:00

My friend Lucid, whom has appeared here several times before, has once again effectively made me shut up (well remember that time he called me a love-slut?). Here's an excerpt of what he responded when I told him about my new epiphanies:

"..the intimate revelations of young men or at least the terms in which they express them are usually plagiaristic and marred by obvious suppressions.."

Apparently it's part of his favorite quote by F Scott Fitzgerald. There's really nothing like combining plagiarism with obvious suppressions if you're trying to quiet someone. Now you'll never know what I was gonna say next though.

Swim To Me

2010-12-28T16:38:00.000-08:00

Song To The Siren

On the floating, ship less oceans
I did all my best to smile
Till your singing eyes and fingers
Drew me loving into your eyes

And you sang, "Sail to me
Sail to me, let me enfold you"
Here I am, here I am
Waiting to hold you

Then I dreamed, you dreamed about me
Were you here when I was for sail?
(Was for sail)
Now my foolish boat is leaning
Broken lovelorn on your rocks

For you sang, "Touch me not
Touch me not, come back tomorrow"
Ohh my heart, ohh my heart
Shies from the sorrow

When I'm as puzzled as a newborn child
I'm as riddled as the tide
Should I stand amid the breakers?
Or shall I lie with death my bride?

Hear me sing, "Swim to me
Swim to me, let me enfold you"
Here I am, here I am
Waiting to hold you

Please Exhale Before Entering

2010-12-21T13:25:00.000-08:00

Dr Sam is my new therapist.

I would recommend anyone who's not completely happy to go to psychotherapy as it's a treat for the soul and cost as much as a dinner out but will last a lifetime. I left feeling very shook but strangely calm and happy. And I got that head-buzz from new connections being made in the brain. (Which by the way is the exact same feeling I get when I have a breakthrough while doing yoga...)

Remember I said that "Spirituality Is The New Bling" about a year ago? I didn't even know how right I was! Therapy is the new drug & yoga is the new party.

And don't forget to B R E A T H E. I found this sign on the door to a shop in South Florida. It's brilliant - one should always exhale before entering.

Broken Up

2010-12-21T13:07:00.000-08:00

Me & Casey have separated, I live in a little doll-house on the beach now, where everything is miniature. But that doesn't matter because I won't have visitors. I need to be alone. I love being alone all of a sudden.

Casey has quit all his vices and become a yogi, believe it or not. This breakup must be the best thing ever happened to him... he just sent me this quote:

"Then must you strive to be worthy of her love. Be brave and pure, fearless to the strong and humble to the weak; and so, whether this love prosper or no, you will have fitted yourself to be honored by a maiden's love, which is, in sooth, the highest guerdon which a true knight can hope for."
Sir Arthur Conan Doyle

Golden Girl

2010-12-14T17:20:00.000-08:00

live at the bottom of an ocean of air

2010-12-12T16:27:00.002-08:00

Jung on fate

2010-12-12T16:27:00.000-08:00

The psychological rule says that when an inner situation is not made conscious, it happens outside, as fate. That is to say, when the individual remains undivided and does not become conscious of his inner contradictions, the world must perforce act out the conflict and be torn into opposite halves.

ART BASEL 2010:

2010-12-06T13:03:00.000-08:00

Unfortunately I had a pinched nerve & pms during this years Art Basel Miami Beach. Casey's art show Spectre Event Horizon turned out a big success:

As was my show at the store where Casey also was showing his own art...

I thought maybe Basel would make me into partying again but it didn't at all. I'm just done. I should rename this blog!

It Will Not Be Okay Again

2010-11-09T10:49:00.000-08:00

You Get The Cat You Deserve

2010-11-09T09:49:00.000-08:00

My new cat hates us. She stares out the window wishing she was somewhere else. She doesn't even care for poor Tano who adores her.

How did we end up with such a cat? Casey wonders. His Tano is the sweetest cat on earth and my Iris is, uh.. a bitch.

Simple. It's my cat & you get the cat you deserve. Erratic, long-limbed creature. She's beautiful. I'm gonna take care of her, I'll love her even if she doesn't like me.

We Were Never Being Boring

2010-11-08T08:05:00.000-08:00

I was talking to one of my oldest friends Sofia and she said this song made her think of me.

Isn't that always our worst fear, to be boring.

Mission accomplished?

Long Hair

2010-10-27T07:42:00.001-07:00

When I let my hair grow out I want it to look like this:

Iris

2010-10-14T15:43:00.000-07:00

My new kitty is a nightmare. The first night she climbed up the chimney so when I woke up there were little paw-prints all over the house. I love her so much.

Myrra's drawing of me

2010-10-07T11:15:00.000-07:00

By Myrra Leifsdottir

Let it not matter. Let it come. Let it go

2010-10-07T09:28:00.000-07:00

I once had a crush
it really mattered then

I don't put significance in the paths leading to here
I used to put all the significance in the paths leading to here

I don't put significance in the illusions I've built around myself
I don't care to maintain them anymore

I had a crush
she was fearless
drastic solutions

(You spent so many years as her!)

Inhale
Wait here

Let it come to me
or not
let it not matter

Diorama in an old tv-cabinet

2010-10-02T13:43:00.000-07:00

We found this old tv-cabinet at the auction and since nobody wanted it we got it for $15. Now Casey is making a beautiful diorama inside of it.

The Hemingway House & Seven-toed Cats

2010-09-29T14:08:00.000-07:00

So the wonderful cats are called Hemingway Cats, polydactyls, or Mitten Cats. It's a genetic mutation that give them more toes than usual and Hemingway loved his 7-toed cats so much that they inherited his house in Key West. People are welcome to visit - but it's obviously only the cats that are allowed to scratch the sofas.

This is where Hemingway buried his cats!

His writing room, so cozy! Apparently he woke up and went to write for a few hours before he started drinking. Every day!

Dolphin Burping Fish

2010-09-29T11:20:00.001-07:00

We caught this dolphin burping up fish and feeding the small fishes with it...

Feeding the Tarpins

2010-09-29T10:55:00.000-07:00

So this guy Robbie had a bar and liked fish - one day he saved a Tarpin with a dislocated jaw. Once the fish got better he let it back into the ocean but the fish kept coming back, and he called it Scarface. Soon Scarface had showed all the other Tarpins where to go to get free fish and tourists started coming to Robbie's to feed the Tarps...

PS When I laugh so much it's because a tiny bird just stole the fish out of my hand. It was astonishing that he could fly with it, cause they were about the same size... Also I was terrified of the huge Tarpins, even though everyone said they're friendly I felt like they would accidentally bite my finger off...

Compartamentalization

2010-09-25T15:23:00.000-07:00

Living in Little Haiti...

2010-09-23T13:55:00.001-07:00

Nicole: Can you send a car to Northeast 44th street?

Police: Yeh but you know where you live right?

In Little Haiti, remember that. Not Design District as you guys call it.

If your life is a work of art - who cares if they call you an artist?

2010-09-23T13:54:00.001-07:00

The Vivian Girls

2010-09-18T14:38:00.000-07:00

I just discovered Henry Darger's Vivian Girls, how wonderful they look with their little penises!

On privacy, or lack thereof

2010-09-17T16:22:00.000-07:00

Reading about the new Facebook movie in NY Mag. Apparently Mark Zuckerberg is less than happy with it. He's gone from nerd with no social life to billionaire with million friends and now he's being exposed and caricatured.

Funny when the founder of FB wants more privacy! The same privacy he's "stolen" from us! What is privacy anyways, the convenience of hiding certain aspects of yourself? And why do you need to do that??

Maybe in the future privacy becomes a commodity, kind of the opposite to now when fame is the goal for many... Either way I'm personally a huge fan of transparency. What you see is what you get! If you're not ashamed of it it can't be used against you : )

Casey & Me

2010-09-17T14:36:00.001-07:00

At least Bek thought it looked just like us.

The Party Photographer

2010-09-13T06:48:00.000-07:00

Do you ever feel that the party photographers don't pay you enough attention? Someone in my house decided to bring one home...

Fear & Loathing

2010-09-10T17:46:00.001-07:00

The Fake Sky in Las Vegas

2010-09-10T15:35:00.000-07:00

Gloria

2010-08-27T10:03:00.000-07:00

Casey watched the Cassavettes movie Gloria for the first time when he was five years old. I watched it last night. It's one of the most amazing movies I have ever seen. I couldn't help identify with Gloria, and Casey obviously is the kid.

Orange Hands

2010-08-27T09:43:00.001-07:00

What if the water that came out of the shower was treated with a chemical that responded to a combination of things, like your heartbeat, your body temperature and your brain waves, so that your skin changed color due to your mood? (...)

Everyone could know what everyone else felt, and we could be more careful with each other, because you'd never want to tell a person who's skin was purple that you're angry at her for being late. (...)

Another reason it would be a good invention is that there are so many times when you know you're feeling a lot of something, but you don't know what the something is. Am I frustrated? Am I actually just panicky? And that confusion changes your mood, it becomes your mood, and you become a confused, gray person. But with the special water, you could look at your orange hands and think, I'm happy! That whole time I was actually happy! What a relief!

From Jonathan Safran Foer's "Extremely Loud and Incredible Close"

HiChristina's Looking Great

2010-08-21T16:22:00.000-07:00

As photographed by Sonja Georgevich

Arresting The Window Cleaner

2010-08-19T14:01:00.000-07:00

A cop just came into my store talking about a homeless man that's been harassing me and washing his socks outside my door.
I've never seen this man, I respond.
The cop brings me out on the street and points out my window cleaner. He's an old man with a beard, but sweet as can be, and very reliable.
Washes his socks! Those are his cleaning rags.... Crazy cop!!

Wonderful Saab

2010-08-18T19:50:00.000-07:00

I grew up in a Saab, it means lots of wonderful things to me since my father always had one, and still do. Very disturbing to have to see this. I mean, we are not supposed to really know the same company blows people's brains out, are we?

Fish for the Kitty

2010-08-08T22:56:00.001-07:00

Ernesto & Sean

2010-08-08T22:36:00.000-07:00

Wig Party

2010-08-08T22:25:00.000-07:00

My Dad's Place

2010-08-08T22:19:00.000-07:00

Shauna Like I Always Imagined Her

2010-08-07T14:03:00.000-07:00

First Photo From Sweden

2010-07-30T16:20:00.000-07:00

More is coming soon

Stormy Beach

2010-07-30T16:17:00.000-07:00

Dinner At The Old Church, Red Hook

2010-07-07T14:50:00.000-07:00

The Tampon Panty

2010-07-07T11:48:00.000-07:00

After seeing the up-close photos of a 16 year old celebrity's tampon string last week I freaked out. Apparently there's something wrong with wearing a tampon, that justifies zooming in on someones crotch and blast it out as something to be ashamed of?? She forgot to tuck in her tampon string!!!

Me and Christina got quite into it and decided to construct a panty with a tampon string attached to it in order to prevent this from ever happening again: "I was NOT wearing an actual tampon - it was just my tampon string panties".

You can easily design your own tampon string panty as well.

Here Christina is wearing the panties:

Lady Gaga is wearing them too:

Guys feel free to join!

Looking Sharp

2010-07-06T11:32:00.000-07:00

Uh yeh we've been looking sharp lately.

4th of July

2010-07-05T23:42:00.001-07:00

We started out at a party at 63rd street, 35th floor, perfect view of the fireworks! Then we went to the Standard Hotel and invaded their pool.

Horrible Things That Are Weirdly Beautiful

2010-06-21T20:29:00.000-07:00

Terrible things really shouldn't be this beautiful. And when you look closer they aren't, either.

Michelle's BBQ and Pool Party

2010-06-21T07:37:00.000-07:00

Disko Queen

2010-06-20T05:14:00.000-07:00

Chris Video's new video, I'm in there briefly, laughing at him when he's dancing at the Bar.

Carnivale of Ascension

2010-06-20T05:10:00.000-07:00

Adam Aleksander posted this video from the epic party last summer. The film is shot by Jean Sebastien Berard.

Yes it's me and Casey making out...

At Cafeina in Wynwood

2010-06-19T20:49:00.000-07:00

It Can't Be True

2010-06-12T12:38:00.000-07:00

When you leave New York for a while you always have to remind yourself that the city will still be there when you come back. Or at least I do all the time.

Then, today, I saw this photo posted by Basil...

My Room

2010-06-11T09:56:00.001-07:00

The new mirror over the bed is amazing...

Memorial Weekend

2010-06-05T20:35:00.000-07:00

Melisa + Michael = baby on it's way!!!!

2010-06-04T15:29:00.000-07:00

Congratulations to this amazingly beautiful and healthy mom to be. Love you.

Shauna's Legs

2010-06-04T15:27:00.000-07:00

Favorite Couples in New York

2010-06-04T15:23:00.000-07:00

Tom and Laura just started dating but I LOVE these two together

Christina and Fritz, I hope they will last forever

Jonny and Hillary always seem to have a great time together

1,2,3 pose!!

2010-06-04T15:10:00.001-07:00

Liz & Patrick's Video

2010-06-04T13:44:00.001-07:00

Me?

2010-06-04T13:31:00.001-07:00

Yes it is me. In a wig, makeup and after retouching!

Photo by Nicole Santoni and makeup is by Jordana Rabinowitz

Elizabeth Harper

2010-06-04T13:29:00.000-07:00

Ran into lovely Liz on Memorial weekend, loved her big bangles:

Jenni Looking Amazing

2010-06-04T13:27:00.000-07:00

Alisha & Co in Miami

2010-05-12T19:22:00.000-07:00

Breakfast at the Biltmore Hotel

2010-05-12T19:21:00.000-07:00

Driving to the Keys with Rachel

2010-05-12T19:19:00.000-07:00

Trolls

2010-04-24T21:43:00.000-07:00

Clarkie Cutting Edge

2010-04-24T11:22:00.001-07:00

Mirror Poetry

2010-04-15T23:06:00.000-07:00

Collage

2010-04-09T21:04:00.000-07:00

Casey's New Lover

2010-04-09T20:43:00.001-07:00

Casey's new art piece is apparently requiring hundreds of porcelain figures. This is his favorite right now.

Colors

2010-04-09T20:35:00.000-07:00

Me Talk Pretty One Day

2010-03-27T10:59:00.001-07:00

"I'd order the skirt steak with a medley of suffocated peaches, but I'm put off by the aspirin sauce. The sea scallops looks good until I'm told they're served in a broth of malt liquor and mummified litchi nuts. What I really want is a cigarette, and I'm always searching the menu in the hope that some courageous young chef has finally recognized tobacco as a vegetable. Bake it, steam it, grill it, or stuff it into littleneck clams, I just need something familiar that I can hold on to."

David Sedaris

Cool Shades Bro

2010-03-26T16:39:00.001-07:00

bfgf

2010-03-26T16:12:00.001-07:00

Wednesday night we went to see bfgf play at Purdy lounge during WMC. Somehow it got out of hand though, in this photo my head has just knocked over my drink and Nicole is trying to save it.

By the time I started drinking water it was already too late...

Boyfriend Girlfriend. So cool

Black Bar w Ernesto

2010-03-23T12:39:00.000-07:00

Ernesto took me to Black Bar last night. I don't really know how it started, but soon I got involved with this jacket-trading-while-dancing-like-a-cray-person video production... can't wait to get my hands on the actual video, coming soon hopefully.

Kandi & Rollin

2010-03-22T10:09:00.000-07:00

Me and Nicole went to Michelle's bday party with high expectations - but we had no idea we would soon step into the most wonderful enchanted house I ever seen... Located in the middle of the ghetto you open the gate and feel like you fell into the rabbit hole. Amazing. Kandi and Rollin have been living there for 40 years, they're both artists.

Michi drying her underwear on the fire.

Chris Video plucking flowers and Michelle the bday girl with her new bag.

Missed Connections

2010-03-19T10:32:00.001-07:00

http://miami.craigslist.org/mdc/mis/1650167850.html

The Tano Likes His Florida Lifestyle

2010-03-17T15:33:00.000-07:00

"In needs to have an invite to the party"

2010-02-27T09:47:00.001-08:00

My friend Youco just moved to Sweden. I was kinda jealous, until I see her Facebook status today:

Youco Harada is wondering that,Why she wanted to move to Stockholm before? may be she was in dream with Swedish beauty. now realised reality.

Therese Aldgård and that is? cold,dark,boring? ;) come back to NY asap and lets have fun! :)

Youco Harada cold dark is not matter. Boring is all about. in needs to have an invite to the party. not like NY you can go to party you don't know the host of the party,at least you know where the party is.

Family Drama

2010-02-24T16:22:00.001-08:00

Sole's new lover Tai Tai is not allowed inside since he pees in corners. Now he's patiently waiting outside almost every day.

Suzy is falling in love??

2010-02-19T10:56:00.000-08:00

Suzy - whose secret quotes have been featured on this blog for several years - emailed me late last night:

But when you're in love, you feel your heart burst into little bits and pieces. There's blood everywhere. --suzy

Oh well, this is even madder

2010-02-17T10:02:00.001-08:00

Fritz and Eyal really managed to encapsulate what Miami is all about. The photo of Fritz blows my mind, he came here for 4 days and he really got it.

Uncorruptibility

2010-02-13T14:28:00.001-08:00

Found this great mustache blog through my friend Lara. This is my favorite post.

Miami Madness

2010-02-13T12:28:00.000-08:00

Christina, Fritz, Emma & Eyal all stayed with us - crazy times of course. More photos coming soon, yay!

My Girls

2010-02-08T20:08:00.000-08:00

Worst Quotes

2010-02-03T16:31:00.000-08:00

Christina Ewald is in Miami, so happy to see her after 3 months!!!! I showed her a recent article that quoted me poorly, and she gave her worst one. Here we go:

Christina in Time Out:

“I think I’m always doing something crazy, or I’m always in a scene that would make a good picture, something graphic. There’s always something that would make a picture if I knew how, so it was good I had a camera this time, because I’m always in interesting situations. I should be documenting this stuff; someone has to be memorializing these things.”

Me in Joonbug:

"I have customers that have said to me ‘I love your stuff. I'll be back.' And they've all actually come back," said store manager, Ewa Joseffsson.

Vizcaya

2010-02-02T22:23:00.001-08:00

Essentials vs Non-Essentials

2010-02-02T15:21:00.000-08:00

When opening for the Gotheburg Film Festival Roy Andersson, my favorite film maker, talked like only Roy Andersson can:*

- This Swedish Film Institute initiative [to support commercial films] might lead to a new Åsa-Nisse-film next year. Åsa-Nisse's creator was a fanatical Nazi and Antisemit that participated in German Waffen-SS during the war, and by doing so probably participated in massacres of Jews.
- He had the opportunity to portray this, but instead he wrote comedies about stereotypical Smalanningar (Swede's from Southern Sweden, district of Smaland). He transferred the interest to cheap entertainment instead of witnessing about the truth - just like the film industry does today, transferring people's attention from the essential to the non-essential.

*My translation

Mmmmmmmmmm

2010-02-02T15:12:00.001-08:00

Me, Casey and Shauna chilling at the Standard's Spa. Not quite the orgy it looks like, but definitely sharing a little piece of heaven here in Miami.
Still waiting to hear someone, anyone, who doesn't love the Standard. Old Florida vs New Florida? Old Florida!!

Our Rooms

2010-01-31T11:06:00.000-08:00

In a few weeks and with a couple hundred dollars Casey decorated our two little rooms.

Dinner and Party, Casey Working at The Bar

2010-01-31T11:04:00.000-08:00

Casey's Purple Heart

2010-01-31T11:02:00.000-08:00

I love this artwork. Casey Zap 2010

Me & Emma 5 years ago....

2010-01-26T16:33:00.000-08:00

This is the parking lot next to our studio....

Night Train

2010-01-26T16:26:00.000-08:00

Things had changed
that night you showed up at the airport
Pale with dry nervous lips
shaking while kissing me

Later you told me I didn't
look happy
That I looked down
when I saw you

It may have been true
I didn't know who had come yet
what to make of it
this sudden realization of a dream

Waking up smiling
a curly mess next to my pillow
the intricate patterns of our paths
finally intersecting

We balanced on a thin rope
those first weeks
Observing each others every move
signs and omens in each spoken word

While you were sleeping I went to work:
Sewing dream fibers into your favorite jacket
blowing love dust into your pockets
and braiding our fingers together

In the evenings I watched you pick me up from work
with shimmering eyes and olive tone skin
I cut locks of your hair for my secret drawer -
a souvenir of my happiness

I left the trash you brought in the back of the closet
Never looking back or into the darkness again
I trusted you to sort it
just like I was going to sort my own messy drawers

But the third week I woke up mortified
having dreamed it was all dark again
that these two weeks were all we got
I dug my nails into your skin until you bled

So I sew dream fibers into every seam of your clothes
Left piles of love dust in the corners of the room
When you woke up I pretended to be sleeping
So much had already been said

I sealed my lips with a promise of silence:
I had cried and screamed to get us here
Now was time to shut up
slowly let it happen

I checked into the night train
made myself comfortable in the bed next to you
ready to rest and wake up in a new place
Pockets full of dreams

Happy New Year

2010-01-08T13:41:00.000-08:00